We could even see through the Opaque bandage his heart, every beat of
his pumping heart. His Chest was open. Now we knew what to see. It simply
took your breath away from astonishment. Our Beautiful baby boy was alive
through machines breathing for him, and medicines and machines pumping
his heart. He just laid there lifeless.
For the next 4 days, he would need to have his chest left open. We stayed at
the hospital quite a bit but also, from time to time we had to remember we
had another son and he as well needed our attention. So we went back and
tried to get a little sleep and eat something.
During these four days our fears were coming true, he was waking up. He
would look at us or move or try to make a sound. We were excited but
worried as well with his chest still open. They wanted him at the brink of
waking but not enough to feel or remember anything or experience much.
But he recognized us, our smell and our voices.
The Fourth day came and we were so relieved. We finally came to the
conclusion it's not going to be a quick in and out and we needed for our own
sanity to break down each milestone and celebrate them as they came forth.